Thursday, May 6, 2010

Entrance Exam- Part VII (The Finale)

“Love does not make the world go round. Love is what makes the ride worthwhile.” Love ispires us right? To be stronger, to continue to do what we are expected to, Love motivates us to continue dreaming. And I will admit Si ARVIN at si ANDY lang ang dalawang taong nagiinspire sakin.

Ang lakas ng tibok ng puso ko hindi dahil sa kilig na nasa harapan ko ang dalawang taong pinaka mahal ko pero kinabahan ako ng sobra na makita na magkausap sila, at halo halo nalang ang pumapasok sa isip ko, ano ba pinag-uusapan nila, baket bigla nalang sila nag-usap? Bakit ganito. Nakita nila ako na lumabas ng elevator at bigla pumasok ng room naming si Andy at natira si Arvin sa labas. I approached him,

“Oh! Bat magkausap kayo ni partner?” I asked him

“Wala sabi nya magkasama kayo kagabi ang nag gawa kayo ng project, na kwento mo pala sakanya yung tungkol sakin” then he smiled at me

“Oh anong sabi nya?” tanong ko ulet, nagulat ako na tears fell from his eyes, tapos he was still smiling

“Mahal mo din ako, pero parang ayaw mo dahil iba tayo, gusto ka pala nya” he then stopped his tears and he rested his palms on my shoulder. “kung gusto mo din sya, okay lang ako Gab! I’ll be happy kasi Masaya ka, pero hindi naman dito ma eexpire yung I’ll wait ko eh, kahit kayo, andito padin ako, hihintayin ko na maging ready ka sakin” he was stopping his tears pero parang di nya na mapigilan, he rushed away from me and pababa sa building, ayoko gumawa ng eksena sa school kaya hindi ko sya sinundan, I was not able to go to class kasi hindi din naman ako makakapakinig, I just texted Andy na kelangan ko ng kausap. Umuwi nalang ako sa apartment para mailabas ko kung ano kailangan ko ilabas, I was crying the whole hour dahil dun. May kum akatok sa kwarto ko and binuksan ko and I saw Andy, I just hugged him and I told him na ganun nga yung reaction ni Arvin sa pag uusap nila.

“Sorry Gab ah! Gusto ko lang kasi malaman kung ano talaga nararamdaman nya sayo, at Oo! Mahal na mahal ka nya Gab! Alam mo bay un” he told me

“Alam ko, kaya nga ang sakit para sakin nung sinabi nya kanina” I answered

“Oh! Hindi ka naman siguro iiyak ngayon kung hindi mo sya mahal diba? Gab! Di naman ako umaasa na maging tayo eh, all I want is to see you happy, and I’m sure magiging Masaya ka kay Arvin” he advised

I texted Arvin pero hindi sya nag rereply, nakakinis kasi gustong gusto ko na sabihin sakanya that time na hindi nya na kailangan maghintay, eto na sigurp yung nagging trigger para marealize ko na eto na nga! Si Arvin natalaga to! Si Andy! Masayang Masaya ako na nandyan sya para sakin, pero nung tinimbang ko, wala eh! Si Arvin at si Arvin lang talaga. Ayaw nya magreply sakin so kailangan ko gumawa ng way na mapapunta sya dito, I asked for Andy’s help para itext sya na may nangyari sakin at punta sya ng apartment, and boom! Nagreply agad si Arvin ko! After 10 minutes or so, someone came rushing through the door with his teary eyes, he saw me na nakupo lang sa bed ko, he rushed to me and hugged me, and I felt so relieved

“Ano nangyari? Nasaktan ka ba? Dahil bas a ginawa ko? Dahil ba sakin? Ha? Ha?” he was still hugging me habang nararamdaman ko na tumutulo yung luha nya samay shoulders ko.

“Arvin, wala nangyari! Gusto lang kita papuntahin dito pero ayw mo magreply sakin, so nanghingi ako ng tulong kay Andy para mapapunta kita dito.”

“Bakit?” sabi nya, lumabas si Andy ng kwarto ko para bigyan kami ng privacy. I just looked into his eyes and I told him

“Siguro nga iba tayo, siguro nga natatakot ako na baka mag clash lang tayo pag naging tayo, natatakot ako nab aka hindi ako maging enough para sa love na ibibigay mo… pero yung love naman natin yung makakapagset aside ng differences natin ah. “ I touched his face and I told him “I’m ready”

He smiled back at sobrang iba talaga, sobrang saying smile, na parang wala ng bukas yung smile nya. He kissed me habang may kaunting tears na bumagsak mula sa mga mata nya, My eyes are also read and the moment our lips touched, my eyes can’t help but shed its tears, naiiyak ako habang hinahalikan nya ako. At pati sya ay bahagyang lumuluha.
Hindi ko talaga ineexpect na noong araw pa nay un ang magiging marka ng relasyon naming dalawa. I was smiling. He was smiling, Andy was smiling. Everybody’s happy. Kitang kita ko yung ngiti sa mga labi ni Arvin, yung tears na dahan dahang bumabagsak sa mata nya sa sobrang saya.

Kami na ni Arvin at Oo up to this date na mapopost tong story na to alam kong kami padin. I finished this story March 31, 2010 ngayon medyo may tampuhan kami pero kami padin… Arvin, Andy and yours truly became the best of friends ever since, my two babies, Andy, my new bestfriend, at si Arvin, ang mahal na mahal kong boyfriend. Andy never attempted to kiss me or do what we did the night of the project. Arvin and I? may mga times na nagkakatampuhan, nothing’s perfect naman kasi and di mo naman maiiwasan yung tampuhan sa magkarelasyon, What I’m proud of is that we are surviving in this relationship kahit na may mga side comments at mga mallanding umaaligid aligid dyan. Sorry taken na ako, at sorry taken na tong si Arvin ko.! Ang bumangga GIBA!...

Siguro nga no? Sabi nila It’s the differences that makes love more exiting! Pero sabi ko naman It’s not the differences that love depends on and it’s never the differences that hinders love, It’s a matter of, you both, looking outward in the same direction… Having the same visions, and both trying your best to keep it alive.

I’m sensitive and I’m In love… and that’s what makes me strive more.….


Thank you for everyone who took time on reading this and finishing it… Thank you and may everyone have a peacefull day

-Gab

12 comments:

  1. nice ending..,:d
    kip safe

    MARKC

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  2. @MARKC nice ending ba yan :) sobrang minadali ko yan, madaming nakakaalam kung bakit gang part 7 lang yan :) pero salamat nadin at binasa nyo :) thank you thank you

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  3. ahh..ganun pala nangyari..ahmm ok.. but then your entire story is awesome. its a great story. congratulation for that. and Once again thank you for sharing this story of yours.

    PS I was just a little bit confused with this statement

    "Arvin, Andy and yours truly became the best of friends ever since, my two babies, Andy, my new bestfriend, at si Arvin, ang mahal na mahal kong boyfriend"

    are the two babies there different from Andy and Arvin?
    Am I wrong?
    just asking

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  4. Hi gabi,

    i'm sorry about what happened. di ko kasi alam. i'm sori pero naniniwala ako maaayos nyo pa yan. pakiramdam ko kulit ko pa dun sa message ko sayo. sorry. thanks for the add!

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  5. @PauLo: yup ganun yun hehe.. And yeah Sila yung dalawang babies ko... pero ngayon dalawa ko na din silang bestfrined

    @Patrick: it's okay it's okay :))

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  6. Nakakaupset... Yun lang ang masasabi ko...

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  7. @Peyups_boy

    Nakakupset talaga... hhehe sorry if kailangan matapos that fast

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  8. im so sad, parang hindi n po kayo ni "arvin" right now..

    saw ur fb.
    your so cute.
    sayang at hindi ako ang unang nakakita sayo
    niligawan n sana kita. :)))

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  9. Hey Gab.. just finished reading this..Nice One...ahehehe..

    Good for you..
    ;)

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  10. tuwing nagbabasa ako ng ganito, naaaliw ako. hindi pa rin kasi ako makapaniwala na may ganito pala talaga at sa isang community pa tayo galing. FEU community though I'm about to graduate pa lang this April. hohoho.

    Siguro wala lang masyadong ganyan sa course ko o baka naman hindi lang ako nag-eentertain kasi hanggang ngayon masyado kong iniisip na hindi pwede yung ganun o walang patutunguhan at natatakot ako na baka pagdating ng araw na mag-asawa ako ng babae e maging problema pa yun saming dalawa.

    oo, gusto ko magkaroon ng asawa, yung babae, saka anak pero parang may kung ano saken na gusto kong subukan yung mga ganyang bagay. gulo e no? saka dito kasi sa atin, pag naging "bi" ka, parang diretso ka na sa pagiging bading kasi nagiging exclusive ka na sa same sex. it's so tough enjoying both worlds or I just haven't tried and never really had the courage to try. ang weird kasi I feel so comfortable posting my comment here knowing YOU might read it... ganun yata pag kapwa tamaraw.. hehe. anyway, I enjoyed reading your story... kuya. hehe.. kung ok lang na ikaw na muna maging kuya ko... =)

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  11. Matagal ko nang alam 'tong blog na 'to but I never really tracked back. Parang si jabee, ako din pagraduate pa lang ngayong April. IN din. Sad lang din kasi wala akong experience na ganyan. Maybe I was snob and people find me repulsive. I kept finding love in the wrongest places din. So there, gagraduate na single as ever. I'm so envious of your story, I wish I have my own story to tell also, and that people would find it interesting and inspiring to read on.

    To Jabee, may we find our true loves. Pareho tayong frustrated tamaraw :P

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  12. ito lng masabi ko WOOOOOOOOOOOwww! na inlove lalo ako sa BF ko...u really inspired me.

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